Don't blame me

  After returning home, I couldn't sleep. I opened the CD and a familiar song came out - Time is crazy, I've been obsessed with it all the way, vaguely sad, no time to forget, only waiting for the wind to bury her.

  I've always thought that a person's character and fate are related to their name. For example, Pu Shu and Han Han, they both have an artistic temperament deep down.

  Where is Xia?

  I rubbed my temples and a silly image appeared in my mind - someone holding a loaf of bread, yearning for love with a goofy and contented expression.

  And she's not a crybaby either. Who gave her such a festive name?

  Then I remembered the business card that Yu Tian handed over to me twenty minutes ago when I was about to get off the bus, which was later torn into pieces by me. I didn't even have time to see half a word on it, so now it's impossible to piece together a complete number no matter what.

  No matter what happens next, I won't regret it. My eyes are like a desert that has been dry for ages, they don't dare to rain.

  I snuggled under the blanket on my bed and started to hypnotize myself, counting sheep and orangutans as if I were in a zoo.

  Still can't sleep.

  Finally, I ran five kilometers on the treadmill and fell asleep with exhaustion. No, not asleep, because I had a dream again.

  It's only in recent years that I've started having dreams frequently, and the content of these dreams has been more or less the same, so I've gone from initially feeling panicked and uneasy to now being used to it.

  The person who appeared in my dream is my ex-best friend, Xiaoxing.

  This generation's BFFs have already given up on trending on Weibo like Wang Feng, but Xiaoxing is a bit different. Because I've even forgotten what she looks like, only remembering that others always said we looked alike, and during our honeymoon phase, we often wore the same clothes, holding hands and strutting around campus.

  After that, we became like strangers. I completed the procedures for going abroad at the fastest speed. Soon after, Xiaoxing also transferred schools and lost contact with our former classmates.

  The little star that appeared in my dream was just a blurry figure, I also saw myself, it was me who pushed her away with great force, the next scene was all red.

  Just like fresh blood.

  Because of such a strange dream, every time I wake up with a start, I open her blog and take deep breaths while holding my chest. In these years, she has been to many places, just as she said before, her wish is to travel to every corner of the world.

  The latest update was a week ago, and the location is Salzburg, Austria. She posted several photos of a small town that was still brightly lit at midnight.

  I must dream of the things I am seeking.

  It's her favorite line from The Sound of Music. Even if my dreams become more vivid and real each time, they're just absurd fantasies.

  Xiao Xing has been doing very well. She achieved those free and easy dreams that wandered during the journey. It's just that we still don't forgive each other until now.

  I closed my laptop and made a super cool expression in front of the mirror. All exes should be mentally destroyed, whether it's an ex-boyfriend or an ex-girlfriend.

  That night I slept exceptionally sweetly, and also refused Yu Tian's proposal in my dream, and even recognized Chunzi and Google's love crystal as my godson.

  The next day I also slept in until I woke up naturally - 2:30 pm.

  As soon as I left the room, my mom gave me a stern look. I immediately covered my chest and pouted like a fake Lin Daiyu. The old lady lost her temper and asked while serving me rice, "How was that boy yesterday?"

  "Huh?" I suddenly realized, a bunch of skeletons appeared in my mind, "It's okay, but he said the results have been poor recently, can't come back until 2019?"

  The old lady's temper flared up again, and she was just about to come over and grab my ears. But I pointed at the silhouettes on the kitchen door and shrieked, "Mom! How did we get an extra person in our house!"

  The screaming echo still lingered in the air, and the kitchen door had already been pulled open.

  Lin Yue took off the plastic gloves used for washing dishes while half-raising his eyes to look at me with a surprised and suspicious expression.

  I swallowed hard and called out cautiously, "Brother."