Chapter 68: Plucking up the courage to do what I want to do

  "What! You want to write a letter to Su Yu Zhe?" Gu Si Cen almost shouted out loud, fortunately she was in her own room.

  "Please keep your voice down, it wouldn't be good if your parents heard you."

  "What's gotten into you all of a sudden?" Gu Siqi stuck out her tongue and unconsciously lowered her voice.

  "It's been a long time since we parted ways, I don't know... if he still remembers me. I just... want him to know that I exist."

  "Come on, Joanne the celebrity, your name is as famous as thunder! What writing competition, whether it's calligraphy or penmanship; what essay contest, be it lyrical, narrative, or argumentative; English proficiency competitions, math Olympiads, and so on. School-level, city-level, provincial-level... And all those big and small exams, midterms, finals, entrance exams... Which one haven't you topped? And your ranking is always among the top! Who would forget you? Unless they're blind, deaf, and have amnesia! I really don't know where you get so much energy to participate in these miscellaneous competitions, with results that make people jealous. Are you a three-headed, six-armed person?"

  "But he doesn't care about these things. No matter how excellent I am, what's the use? It's better to have a letter and a poem from him every month, which is more profound."

  "Are you ready to sign your own name?" Gu Siqi looked at Qiao Anyu incredulously, with a "you're crazy" expression.

  "It won't work out, but just silently writing letters to him makes me feel a little comforted. It also makes life seem a bit more hopeful."

  "You'd better grasp the degree of this. You can't let him figure it out at once, nor can you make him guess blindly and can't guess who you are. This is a bit difficult, your handwriting has been exhibited by the school every year, who doesn't recognize it?"

  "Look at this." Qiao Yu took a piece of paper and wrote a few words, Gu Siqi pulled it over to take a look, and praised: "I thought you only knew how to write running script and regular script, but it turns out your clerical script is also so good, hiding one's true abilities, even I, your best friend, almost got deceived."

  "How are you going to get the letter to him? By carrier pigeon? Or by sending a swan with a message? You'll have to rely on some external force, won't you?" Gu Siyan asked doubtfully.

  "I've thought it through, please help me give the letter to him." Qiao Anyu said, pausing for a moment. When did her way of addressing her former good friend become distant and unfamiliar? Yu Shuang seemed to have faded out of her, Gu Siqian, and Leng Bing's lives, as if she had never appeared before, or been close with them. But that beautiful memory belonging to the four of them was something that couldn't be erased no matter how hard they tried. Especially the scene where the four of them walked hand in hand through the darkness, it seemed like it was still yesterday, vivid and alive.

  "Yu Shuang?" Gu Si Cai also stared blankly for a while, perhaps she too felt an inexplicable sadness when the name suddenly escaped her lips.

  "It's okay, she is the only person besides Leng Bing who can be trusted. Moreover, she is in the same class as Su Yu Zhe, which is more convenient."

  That night, Qiao An Yu wrote a poem with subtle emotions. The poem used objects as metaphors, three parts bold and seven parts shy, and at first glance, it would not be immediately apparent that it was a love poem. After careful consideration, the bittersweet emotions became clear. Of course, this also depends on whether the recipient has the heart to ponder the deeper meaning.

  Gu Siqi read the poem and highly praised it, claiming that it was a puzzle with poetry as its theme, but essentially a riddle that was historically difficult to guess, and was severely criticized by Qiao Anyu.

  Qiao An handed the jade pendant to Yu Shuang, she just smiled lightly and nodded in agreement: "Good."

  Qiao Anyu wanted to say a few more words to her, but she had already walked far away.

  Is their friendship really going to end like this?

  After delivering the letter, Qiao Anyu felt anxious for several weeks and couldn't sit still. She didn't dare to go to their class to gather information again. She was afraid of seeing Su Yuzhe, but also wanted to see him very much. This contradiction made her feel tangled.

  Will he read his letter seriously? Or, like Shu Zimo, when receiving a girl's letter, will he throw it into the trash can without saying a word? If he reads it, can he understand her letter? It's been so long since he replied, and the hope of understanding is probably very slim. Maybe he just doesn't want to understand the inner meaning.

  Her heart was sometimes lucky and sometimes disappointed.