Section 11 Left Ear (11)

  Section 11: Left Ear (11) I went to the gym on the weekend to watch him play a morning game, sitting there all the time, no matter how hot the weather was. When he scored, I shouted loudly: "Xu Yi, I love you!" Actually, I went to see Zhang Yang, and in my heart, I really wanted to shout: "Little White Willow, I love you." Occasionally, Little White Willow would also play there, but he never paid attention to me, as if we didn't know each other. The other students from different schools who played together heard my shouting and burst into ambiguous laughter. Xu Yi must have felt embarrassed, his face slightly red, but he couldn't do anything about it.

  Sometimes he would walk ahead, and I'd follow him. Suddenly, I'd loudly sing behind his back: "Hey, boy in front, look over here! Look over here!" He was startled that time and quickly ran away. From then on, whenever we walked alone, he would nervously turn around to check left and right before feeling at ease.

  Sometimes I write letters to his mailbox, saying some inexplicable things, including my family's cat and the flowers on the balcony, but he never responds.

  But I knew clearly in my heart that his life was disturbed by me.

  Later he told me that to him, I was like a plant with pungent fragrance, blooming with seductive flowers, making him at a loss for what to do. He had no choice but to ignore me.

  But he couldn't resist the temptation after all, and one weekend after school, he came to me and said, "Let's go see your cat!"

  Hoo-hoo, I did it!

  I really wanted to tell Zhang Yang about this news as soon as possible, but I didn't have time. I took Xu Ye to the riverbank, which is the only small river in our city. It's not scenic, but it's very quiet. I saw a very well-behaved girl reading by the river. Maybe she was waiting for someone. When she saw us, she hastily packed up her book and walked away.

  I've seen this girl countless times, she's so cute, chubby, I won't be as cute as her in my whole life.

  Xu Yi asked me: What are you looking at?

  "No." I withdrew my gaze and said, "You've finally fallen in love with me? It's so tiring to chase after boys."

  On the bank of a small river, Xu Yi walked away a little bit and stood 5 meters away from me with his back to me. I didn't get any closer either.

  There was still the last afterglow, and the bright red light painted half of the sky. The wind was very strong, and I rushed out that day. My hair was not tidy at all, and my front hair was stuck to my face. I asked him loudly: "Why don't you speak? You're not even willing to say a word to me."

  "I'm very pretty, right? I know I'm very pretty."

  "Comrade Xu Yitong, I like you."

  He clenched his fists, looking like he wanted to find something to punch.

  So I slowly crouched down by the river, and didn't say another word. He probably felt surprised, thinking I had already left, so he turned around, saw me squatting there, rubbing my eyes with my hands nonstop.

  I muttered: "Sand got into my eyes."

  I lifted my head towards him: "My eyes got sand in them, can you blow on it for me? It really hurts."

  He didn't move.

  "I repeated: 'It really hurts, okay? Can you come and help me a bit?'"

  Xu Yi finally compromised with himself, he walked over and squatted down, wanting to know how my eyes were doing - by the time he saw the sly smile in my eyes, it was already too late. I reached out my hand, quickly but gently holding his face, and kissed him. This kiss shocked him extremely but he didn't dodge.

  It's so beautiful, it moves me. At that moment, I feel like I'm not human.

  I deceived him, this good kid.

  I'm not without guilt, but love has made me lose some of the rationality I should have. At 3 am, I ran to a deserted small building on the outskirts and smoked, watching the cigarette butt fall from high altitude, a faint spark, desperately falling towards the long-dried grassland.

  Underneath the grass is a patch of black dirty mud.

  I told myself: it's okay, you're not bad, you're just a spoiled kid.

  5

  One day after school, I walked out of the school and suddenly saw Xu Yi.

  He had a big backpack on his back, leaning under the giant plane tree at the school gate. He looked at me as I approached, with some hidden sadness in his eyes that couldn't be concealed.

  I walked over, pinching my throat and speaking in a deliberately cheerful tone: "Hey handsome, what's up? You're actually skipping class today?"

  "I miss you, okay?" Xu Yi said with some grievance, "I haven't heard from you for two whole days."

  I stretched out my hand and pinched his cheek lightly: "Sorry, baby, I've been busy for the past two days."

  "What's keeping you busy?" he asked.

  "What's the hurry, hmm, let me think." I lifted my eyes to look at the sky, and as a result, I saw a black man, very tall, with seven or eight boys, walking out of school. Jump! ~!

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