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  I sat there, wanting to gouge out my eyes, I came back I relapsed you could say but it hasn't even been a day. Him as pathetic as me, as I wait here longer and longer increasing my odds of dying at the hands of another guy about to come to kill me, this guy right here and now has the gall too not accept he lost and instead beg me for the vaccine. For being a leader I suck at it because I can't even control two people, instead he said how he still has a lot of soldiers left it was only roughly around fifties and fourties at his dungeon that passed away. Big numbers I know, but to me it was all numbers no meaning behind anything. I CAN'T EVEN SLEEP ANYMORE. All I see are strings on my hands, have dreams about letting myself go, being my truest self, the most indulgent one, TELLING MYSELF I CAN DO THAT WHEN I BECOME KING, WHEN EVERYBODY IS STILL FOLLOWING THE RULES AND YOU BREAK THEM BUT NOTHING HAPPENS MUST BE THRILLING! I looked around at the clouds, there were less people here today, the world probably needs this more than I ever will huh, ... all I come back to saying is where was all that love when I needed it. My inner thoughts are becoming more and more vivid, all I wanna do is just let myself go, let go of these burdens, DO I HAVE BURDENS ANYMORE ... I am so tired, tired of myself, tired of him, and yet all I said was lies deep down I was only really tired of my lies. Weird how the world found peace after all this, is all this all I could think of as he kept bickering? has it really been just a day ... feels like years. And so I fell into thoughts, one after the other, I wasn't thinking I was on autopilot.

  "I think I can make a difference, please can you give that too me", he said hitting his head on his knuckle not even looking at me face to face avoiding eye contact.

  "You see those people, those weren't the same people like before, we don't even know them, we didn't even know the ones in our past, and yet even through our suffering they are here having known nothing of what we have done, nothing has been done, it's been a year ... you know how long that is dumbass, what is this shit we are doing, and you know the dumb part we are still where we were last time we met up, nobody new in our lives and hell you started praying to a belief you didn't believe in, I don't even want this vaccine anymore", I said knowing damn well of my hypocrisy.

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  "I can do something better, bigger than myself", he said praying.

  "But you haven't and this is the same you who would push someone over the edge over money they don't even owe you, to me fifty isn't even a thing. I kill or killed for a living, you ... you preach but don't even notice fifty is still alot", I said having put down the menu.

  "I wanna say so much right now", he said.

  "In ten years where will all this be, those two, us, why can't we seem to see we hate each other so much we can never work together, every second I see your face makes me want to gouge out your eyes instead of mine because why should I suffer for your incompetence, but biggest of all this vaccine will be yours if you can answer this", I said pointing at those two again.

  "Would those two care about the fifty dead if they got to swap out minds for a day, would they still be here, and most of all something even I can't answer what is their reaction to "an apple a day keeps the doctor away" do they smile, say ok or say something narsissistic, and how would you know", even my comment had no answer it was a bluff of my hypocrisy over a win only I cared for. I didn't wanna give all this away, started loosing touch with grammar a bit from time to time because I am so tired I don't wanna talk.

  "You can only blame it on others for their misshaps because we will never know everything, people share that everything, you can never become king if you don't understand that ... that fifty was worth something, no you can't have this, this is mine, you lost, you started, die in a ditch", I said, all he did was growel at my feet, all my thoughts were saying I AM TIRED THROW IT, MAKE IT ALL BE GONE. I didn't do such ... he hugged my legs begging me, for longer and longer as time went on the day went dark and the store closed. I stood there and he gave up, he let go partially falling to his tiredness, I left. Fin.