I have something about love I'd like to discuss with you

  I always thought that the word "love" would inevitably be empty and pretentious no matter how it was phrased, but when I found this feeling in Yu Tian again, all my previous misconceptions were shattered like they had been blasted by a laser gun.

  I don't know if he thinks so too.

  Yu Tian looked at me for a while and then smiled faintly. He seemed to have something on his mind, but after thinking about it, he decided not to say anything.

  I started to get anxious again, a wave of inexplicable sorrow and melancholy surged up, "If you have something on your mind, just say it straight out, don't be so...so neurotic!"

  I probably can't find an appropriate adjective.

  Yu Tian laughed again, this time a bit fiercely. He was laughing while staring at me, and I almost got dizzy from his stare.

  "Shouldn't I be the one asking you? You suddenly disappeared for four years without a word, and now you're back. What do you mean by this? Hmm? Tell me, what do you want to do? Since you said you quit, why are you back? Xi, is this your usual trick of playing hard to get? Do you think those little tricks still work on me after four years?"

  I stared at Yu Tian in astonishment, his string of questions leaving me breathless. The next second I understood, thoroughly understood. From the hotel at the resort to the hot pot restaurant and then to this office, my home, all those inexplicable words Yu Tian said to me, that lost expression on his face were all fake. He had been testing me from start to finish, whereas I was the one who was completely taken in.

  "You think I'm deceiving you, you think I'm intentionally getting close to you."

  Yu Tian hung his head and didn't respond.

  I clenched my fists, biting my lip, and tears almost burst out. All I heard was his extremely light and cold snort. It's hard to describe how complex my emotions were - disappointment, resentment. If it were in the past, I might have slammed the door and left, leaving him with a sentence "I quit", at least that would be cool. But now I don't want to escape, although it's awkward, I still forced out a fake smile, "I won't resign, but rest assured, even if I decide to stay here, it's not necessarily because of you."

  I also said this sentence very heavily, with emotion, even a little bit, I want to strike him.

  Yu Tian's reaction was more subdued than I had imagined, he lowered his head and continued to process the files. I stood up in front of him, step by step walking out, when I reached the door, I turned my head back, my line of sight coincidentally collided with Yu Tian who also raised his head at the same time.

  I stared at him blankly, then smiled solemnly and said, "Please give my regards to your girlfriend. I admit that I had some excessive expectations these past few days, but from now on, I will be clear about my own position."

  Yu Tian nodded silently, at that moment his expression seemed a bit guilty and also surprised, perhaps he didn't think I already knew about him having a girlfriend.

  Pushing open the door, the air outside was noticeably fresher. Lin looked at me and quickly grabbed my wrist when he sensed that I wasn't in a good mood. He dragged me all the way to the tea room, then pushed me inside, followed by the heavy sound of the door closing. I didn't know if Yu Tian would notice any of this.

  Lin suddenly let go of me, and I immediately lost my strength, collapsing limply onto the sofa. He poured a cup of warm water for me, then after a while, took a deep breath in, and slowly squatted down in front of me.

  "Ji Xi, can you come over a bit?"

  "Huh?"

  Lin suddenly laughed loudly, as if he was really joking, "Si Xi, come over here a bit, I have some romantic thoughts to discuss with you."