I am in Antarctica yearning for your North Star (11)

  Lucy Yang finally found Bai Mo by the river.

  At this time, the sky was already late, and the lights were lit up, the bright lights reflected on the river surface, swaying gently.

  Lucy Yang stood silently on the spot, looking at the girl crouching by the fence beside the river in the distance with her head buried between her knees, and her first reaction was "Finally cried".

  It's really suffocating to hold in all the sadness for so long.

  Because of the distance, Lucas couldn't hear her sobs, only saw that thin body curled up into a ball, trembling incessantly in the wind.

  But the more Lucy Yang observed, the more frightened she became, and the less dared she approach that sorrowful person.

  She won't comfort people, especially those like Bai Mu who don't play by the rules.

  But she couldn't ignore Bai Mo either. After all, in over a decade of living, he was the only good friend she had ever met.

  Lucy Yang hesitated again and again, but finally slowly walked forward until she stood beside Bai Mo. She clearly heard Bai Mo's loud crying voice, and then she stopped in her tracks. Lucy Yang squatted down awkwardly, lifted her hand to gently pat Bai Mo's back, and Bai Mo cried even louder when she saw that the person who came was Lucy Yang.

  Lucy Yang's heart ached as she listened, and she didn't know how to comfort Bai Mo. She could only squat stiffly beside him. Suddenly, she thought of a sentence she had seen somewhere, "As long as you're serious, you've won." She almost blurted it out, but fortunately her usual self-control was strong, and she swallowed the words back just in time.

  In this situation, she can't say that. She doesn't want Bai Mo to always take Lin Yi Xuan seriously and deceive himself again, which will only hurt Bai Mo more and make him even harder to extricate himself.

  Then she said seriously: "If you take it seriously, you lose."

  "Unexpectedly, Bai Mo suddenly bellowed at her in a hoarse voice: 'That's because you'll never know why others are serious! Because you don't hurt! You don't hurt!'"

  Lucy Yang was frightened and stared at the girl in front of her, speechless.

  She understands the feeling of being alone, she really does. The feeling that only you are serious while others don't care, the feeling of loving someone but can't get to them and refusing to let go, the feeling of having no one to understand and can only lick your wounds when you're alone... She understands, she understands everything.

  Has she never been in pain?

  Actually, we all hurt, it's just that very few people are willing to admit that they will take it seriously. Because if you lose, it's a very embarrassing thing.

  Lucy Yang didn't speak for a long time, but Bai Mo calmed down and glanced at Lucy Yang with a sidelong glance. She snorted and laughed self-deprecatingly: "Not long after the start of school, Lu Man had my luggage sent to our dormitory, you deliberately didn't tell me, but I knew everything. It was Lin Yixuan who intentionally let Lu Man do that, he did it on purpose. He's always reminding me that the person he likes is Lu Man."

  "Do you know? Sometimes I wonder why I dislike Lu Man so much, later I found out, because the person I like likes not me, but her."

  "I thought that if I pretended not to know anything, I would win. I kept telling myself to hold on, to hold on until the end, and he would be mine. But later... reality told me I was wrong." Bai Mo wiped her face with her hand, but tears continued to flow from her eyes, no matter how hard she tried to wipe them away. "Actually, Lin Yi Xuan is not my boyfriend. I lied to you, and to many, many people."

  At this point, Lucy Yang's eyes widened in shock as she stared at Bai Mo, who had tears streaming down her face.

  It turns out that this is the real self-deception.

  Deceiving oneself and others at the same time.

  Only today did I understand what "choice is more important than effort" means. Classic! What a painful realization! I shouldn't have learned accounting... Who can tell me how to ace the final exam!!!!!!!

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