I am in Antarctica yearning for your North Star (12)

  She shook her head, laughing at herself: "Because I thought that if I spread rumors about him, he would be mine! He warned me many times not to do this, but I didn't listen. Maybe because of this, he also became more and more disgusted with me! Do you think it's shameful for me to be so clingy? I don't want to be like this either, but I just can't bear the thought of him being with someone else! I just can't stand seeing them together, it makes me feel uncomfortable! I will be jealous and envious!"

  "When we were at Happy Valley, he pulled me out to talk and seriously told me not to continue like this! He also said that he and Lu Man are not together, he said he doesn't think about anything else, his heart only wants to take a good university exam! At that time, I felt like a complete fool! He says such words will only make me feel more embarrassed, do you believe what he said? I don't believe it at all. When boys reject girls, they always use studying as an excuse!"

  For some reason, Lucy Yang actually thought she would believe what Lin Yixuan said. Since meeting Lin Yixuan on the bus back to school, she had felt that Lin Yixuan was a very clever person who wouldn't say things without basis for no reason.

  Moreover, in her opinion, she thinks that Lin Yixuan is absolutely right, and now should still focus on studying.

  But Bai Mu was still in grief, and she didn't know what else to say.

  "Because he was in Yu Hua, I didn't get in after graduating from junior high school. So I rolled on the ground and cried to ask my dad to pull strings to send me to Yu Hua to study. Now I think I'm just a big fool!"

  Lucy Yang didn't know if it was because the wind made her feel a bit chilly or if she really wanted to hug Bai Mo, but as she shook her head and wrapped her arms around his neck, she whispered: "If you weren't so silly, how would I have met you?"

  Thank you for being silly, thank you for letting me meet you, thank you for bursting into my lonely world.

  Although I don't want to see you so sad, thank you anyway.

  "I'm so envious of you, your brain is only filled with studying and nothing else, it would be great if you didn't like anyone." The sound of Bai Mo's sobbing lingered in Rou Xi Yang's ears, like a long rope that was tightening around her heart, tighter and tighter.

  She isn't someone who doesn't have anyone she likes, it's just that she doesn't have the right to cry out loud like this.

  She didn't have Bai Mo's courage, so she wouldn't be rejected. In her eyes, she envied Bai Mo more, that kind of daring to love and hate, that kind of straightforwardness and frankness, was something she would never learn.

  Yes, will never learn.

  When she was young, she always believed that no matter how timid or weak a person is, as long as they grow up, they will transform into a fearless warrior. Just like every time her mother quarreled with her father, even with tears in her eyes, she would never bow her head to her ferocious-looking father.

  Later, she found out she was wrong. It wasn't one thing.

  Some of her timidity was innate, the kind of loneliness and distrust of people rooted in her heart had silently driven her to become a more secretive loner.

  After a while, she suddenly let go of Bai Mo and sat down beside her. She saw that the passersby walking along the riverbank in twos and threes would glance at them with an unusual gaze when they were about to walk in front of them, then turn around and whisper behind their backs.

  Lucy Yang disagreed, rubbing her arms with her hands crossed, her gaze fell on the rippling river surface, the evening wind gently lifted her bangs, blowing it so comfortably, as if lying on a soft cushion.