Left ear (19)

  Left ear (19)

  I walked listlessly to the bedside and sat down.

  That money, altogether is three hundred and thirty-three yuan.

  An unlucky number.

  I see that faint mark on the bed sheet is still there, it's a memory that can never be erased, I don't regret it, no matter how crazy it was, I won't regret it.

  I said in my heart: Zhang Yang, dear, sorry, but this time I won't listen to you.

  10

  When Xu Yi saw me again, I was eating an ice cream on the street.

  Lately I've been inexplicably craving certain foods, sometimes it's a bowl of soy milk, sometimes it's a cake, and sometimes I suddenly want to crack melon seeds. Today, I wanted ice cream.

  I held that five-colored ice cream and stood on the winter street, eating with relish.

  Xu Yi walked behind me and said: "On such a cold day, you should take care of your body."

  I was startled and turned around to see him, he wore a somewhat exaggerated down jacket, jeans, without a backpack. There were many bloodshot eyes, thin.

  I forced a smile and said: "Kid, it's almost final exams, you can't skip class."

  "What's the difference?" said Xu Yi, "It's all the same whether we escape or not."

  I turned the ice cream over: "Don't give up, forget the past, start all over again." The juice of the ice cream dripped onto the ground one drop at a time, like thick tears.

  "I want to know why?" he said stubbornly. "Loving someone, how can you say forget and then forget? Where did your initial craziness go?"

  "I'm heartless."

  "Nonsense!" he rebuked me with bloodshot eyes.

  I smiled, lifted my head, put the remaining ice cream in my mouth, made a BYEBYE gesture to him, and walked forward with big strides.

  He hung his head in despair: "I can't forget you!"

  I steeled myself and continued walking forward. He didn't follow me again. As I turned the corner, I couldn't help but look back at him. He stood alone on the winter street, looking heavy, desolate, and desperate, as if he didn't dare to breathe. His large down jacket hung down, like wings that couldn't fly.

  Just then, I received a short message from Zhang Yang.

  He said: I'll wait for you at our usual place.

  I glanced at my watch, it was almost six o'clock in the evening, dusk had already arrived, and winter nights fell quickly. When I arrived at "the old place", night had completely fallen. I saw him leaning there, he wasn't smoking, but playing with his phone. Hearing my footsteps, he raised his head and made a greeting gesture to me.

  "Which sister are you texting?" I leaned in close to him, trying to take a peek at his phone.

  He didn't put down his mobile phone, I found that it was a new Samsung mobile phone, the latest model, very stylish.

  I pulled up my windbreaker, leaned against him and whispered: "We haven't seen each other for half a month, dear, why didn't you come to my place when you were free?"

  "Tonight's self-study is a physics exam, I only have 15 minutes." He used one hand to pull my body over and started kissing me. The other hand held the phone, taking pictures of us kissing. My eyes glanced at what he was doing, and I couldn't help but laugh. He let go of me slightly, whispering "Focus!" But I couldn't focus, I started feeling uncontrollable nausea again. I pushed him away, squatted down by the side of the road, trying not to throw up. He quickly squatted down too, asking "What's wrong with you? Haven't you gone yet?"

  Thank God, I feel much better now.

  I stood up and pretended to be calm, saying: "It's nothing, I just have a bit of a cold."

  He looked at me incredulously.

  "I shouted loudly: 'I said it's nothing!'"

  "Lei ba la." He pointed at me with his phone, "Do you dare cheat me? Do you know the consequences?"

  I leaned against the wall softly and smiled: "Are you going to kill me? I really wish you would."

  "Don't lie to me, I don't believe you now." He started getting agitated, "I warn you, you'd better not enrage me!"

  "What if I get angry?" I also started to get angry at his distrust, sneering and saying: "I really want to try it out, is it scolding, or beating, or telling me to break up?"

  He put his phone in his pocket, walked up to me, pinched my chin: "Do you know what I hate most in this life? It's when others threaten me."

  His eyes looked as if they were about to bleed.

  I tactfully kept quiet.

  I'm waiting for him to calm down.

  "Answer me, has the child in your belly been aborted? Don't lie!" Jump up! ~!

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