Episode 52 Left Ear (52)

  Section 52: Left Ear (52) I listened to her finish speaking, then used both hands to rub my face vigorously until two red flushes appeared, and only then did I smile foolishly at her.

  It's very comfortable to be with Lin, she doesn't ask me about everything, and of course I don't ask her about things either. Compared to me, Lin has much stronger social skills, sometimes she would take me to the carnival to do services or sell mobile phone cards for a telecom company, or go to the mall entrance to hand out flyers for some company, she always comes up with many ways to make money, I follow behind her, relaxed and carefree, without having to think too much, nor struggling too much in life.

  Ling was eating the soft cake I bought for her, licking her fingers and happily said to me: "Let's go see a movie tonight, I know there's a good one, Tom Cruise's. My treat."

  I said: "I like Andy Lau."

  "Vulgar." She scolded me.

  I burst out laughing, I said that on purpose, actually I like Tony Leung, apart from "Lover's Grief", I also watched another movie of his, he played a man who is infinitely loyal to love in it, the fallen appearance made me cry several times, heartbroken beyond measure, I still remember the name of that film was called "A Song of Everlasting Regret". It's an adaptation by Wang Anyi, what a genius name, everlasting regret, brief pain. Maybe this is the true face of love.

  "What are you thinking about?" Lin waved her five fingers in front of me.

  "I have to go to the student's home," I said, "first time today, must be serious."

  Just then, my phone suddenly rang. In the quiet library, I saw two words flashing on the screen of my mobile phone, and I hastily turned it off.

  The phone rang again and I hung up again.

  Then I escaped from the library.

  The phone continued to ring non-stop. Lin followed me out and put my coat on me, saying "You forgot your clothes."

  "Thank you," I said.

  She looked at my phone. It was still ringing.

  "I'm leaving." I said hastily and turned around to run out of Lin's sight.

  That night, it rained heavily. I came out of a student's home and took the subway back to school. The rain was pouring down, and I didn't bring an umbrella. It was late, and the dormitory would be closed if I returned any later. I stood at the subway entrance for a moment, put my jacket over my head, gritted my teeth, and rushed into the rain. Just as I was approaching the school gate, a figure hurriedly ran up to me and held an umbrella over my head - it was Lin.

  Ling shouted loudly at me in the rain: "Why turn off your phone?"

  "My phone is out of battery."

  She dragged me into school while scolding me, "Why didn't you take a taxi? It's pouring rain!"

  "I'm broke!" I shouted at her.

  "That's enough!" Lin threw the umbrella at my feet. "Li Wei, I hate seeing you torture yourself like this. Let me tell you, a woman who doesn't love herself will never be loved by anyone else!"

  Ling said this and ran away.

  I stood in the rain for a long time before picking up that umbrella and trudging back to the dorm with heavy footsteps.

  That night, Lin's words kept echoing in my mind: "I'm telling you, a woman, if she doesn't love herself, no one will be willing to love her!" I tried to struggle free from those spell-like words, but I couldn't, my whole body felt like it was bound up and in pain, as if I had sunk to the bottom of a deep ocean, unable to breathe.

  When I woke up, I found myself lying in a hospital.

  Ling Shou was by my side, and she gently asked me: "Dear, I bought a new chestnut cake, and also some congee, do you want to have some?"

  "Where am I?"

  "The hospital," Lin said. "You had a high fever of 40 degrees and were talking nonsense, scaring everyone in your dormitory. They knew I was your only sister, so they called me."

  "Thank you," I said.

  "Don't say that." Lin stroked my forehead. "Li Wei, I'm sorry, I'll never leave you behind again."

  I turned away and tears fell down.

  "Who's Barbara?" She asked me, wiping away my tears for me.

  I stared at her in astonishment.

  She said: "You were shouting 'ba la' all night."

  I don't know how to respond to her. I've been living in a world of Ba La for a long time, and that girl is closely tied to my youth. Although she will never come back, I have never thought about leaving the territory that belongs to her. Looking at Lin, I see an illusion of Ba La. I believe that Ba La and Lin are the same, standing from an angle unrelated to love, loving me in the same way, allowing my pain to be released.

  From this point of view, I am so lucky. Jump up!!!

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